Sunday, October 18, 2015

Palsy-walsy Sunday: Finding my voice

Ever since I was a kid, I've considered myself as a quiet, calm and rather introvert type. Though, lately, I've been thinking that this view of myself is completely wrong because I've changed a lot throughout the years.

I know that when I was a little girl, the kids in school thought I was no more than a well-behaved, super quiet  and shy person. I remember that I barely ever said a word to anyone. The same thing when I was with grown-ups, even family. It always made me very insecure that I had a hard time starting or keeping up a conversation or even giving a proper answer without bursting into tears.

Of course, a lot of children are like this. Yet I think this insecurity and fear of talking to people has helped me shape who I am today.

Because, like I said before, I've changed a lot. Somewhere in secondary school, I blossomed. I suddenly found my voice, not only literally as I started becoming a flood of words, but I very much just found who I was and who I wanted to be.

I enjoy being kind to people, and I think that's the 'reputation' I want myself to have. To be a kind, helpful and social person. And you don't get people to image you like that when you refuse to start a conversation. So now I'm the kind of person to start random conversations with random people if they seem cagey, instead of the other way around. I'm the kind who has no problem to converse with a stranger anymore. And very much, I am not afraid at all to stand in front of a big group and being listened to.

I think I've even started enjoying it to talk to people, to know a lot of people. I like to smile and to hug and to walk arm-in-arm with people. I love social contact, more than anything I guess.

Though, don't get me wrong. There's still that shy, introvert little girl inside of me. At some moments, I just NEED to be alone. Then I don't want to talk, don't want to hug and don't want to laugh. That's not necessarily a sad or angry moment, mostly it's just a moment that my energy has been sucked up for a while and I need to reload myself.

I'm in the kind of time of my life where I'm superhappy with who I am and what I have achieved so far, with a big thank you to this blog and my friends and family who support me. I'm on the road I've chosen, and though of course there are cracks in those road, and I might take a wrong junction now and then, but I'm (for the first time in my life) 100 % sure that I'll get where I want to get.

Remember guys: you'll never regret being kind. But don't you let anyone take advantage of your good heart!

All my love for you.


1 comment

  1. Mooie woorden Romy! Ik vind het echt heel knap hoe je dit omschreven hebt. :) Veel dingen komen namelijk bekend voor en het is gewoon fijn om die herkenning te voelen. Op het moment ben ik zelf nog wel veel aan het zoeken, welk 'pad' ik in wil gaan slaan. Het doet me goed om te lezen dat je het idee hebt dat jij je eigen pad gevonden hebt. Dat geeft het gevoel, dat het bij mij ook goed komt. Dikke knuffel, want daar houden we van. :) xxxxx


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